Please read this (you know who you are)

I got your voicemail. I tried emailing you but you deleted it.
Hopefully you'll visit and you'll see this.

Don't give up. You'll find the way. It may seem all is lost but you have it in you to know what you have to do. Never apologize. We all have our faults. Take it one step at a time. You should think about what you need to do for yourself to make yourself better and stronger. Start from there and you can figure out where to go. I know you can do it. Don't lose hope.